Haha... today went to bugis. Kana cheat by 12. Say meet me at 11am go orchard gai gai. Sleeping until 4. Then eat dinner he come late. Then he eat with his friends then he go watch movie. In the end i wait for him until 11.30pm then we eat supper then go home.

Talk a lot with him lah. He tell me about last time he and his gf. Makes me quite sad also. I never think about all these for some time already. Haha difference between an intimate relationship and a relationship base on respect. After he I guess is how mature u are. Then u will know the right way to do things. Then talk about wanlong. So envious, find a good gf. And since he grad waiting to go ns, now he everyday wait for his gf off work then go out. So en ai.

Makes me think about myself last time. Everyday after school will meet my ex. Wait for her after her school. Then we go out eat go out walk walk and then i send her home. Sometimes skip lesson meet her. Come to think of it... Quite fun also those days. But now is all passing memories...

I can never forget the day she left me. We talk on the phone. Then got me 12 and the gan eng seng! gan eng seng bunch at arcade. Then i go upstairs. Go to the mos burger there talk to her. Talk for like 1-2 minutes. Then she say the harsh words. Then that's the end of it. Everything change since that moment. I can still remember after that I walk back to arcade like nothing happen. Then i just sit at an arcade machine. Then i just keep on crying. Cannot stop. Really feel gan pua sad. I can still feel it now. That kind of feeling. Can never forget.

After that day. Everyday is different already. I can still remember. Sometimes i will go to Benedict's shop then we 2 smoke together. Sometimes buy beer back and drink. That's the time i start unhealthy habit of drinking. Lucky i dun continue and get out of my misery.

But sometimes i just feel... I still feel the pain. Who wouldn't. Losing a part of yourself. Dunno why i say all these also. Just feel damn sad today. Cause i think of it again. And i dun want to forget some things.

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